stellambrosia

I love it. Not so much the humidity, but the sense of Home. I came with two bulging bags full of presents for the family and old stinking clothes and memories. I spent two hours talking to my mother about the trip, while she listened, wide-eyed and inquiring. I could feel that she really wanted to get away. I could see why, and I could feel the necessity, the desire. It was bittersweet, as she was truly happy for me, but really wanting the experience for herself.

As for the trip, it was nothing short of enlightening. I came back with a bag of wisdom, a lesson on how to live life as it is, some time to think about my future and what I want to make of myself, a LOT of food and some cooking tips, a suitcase full of new and vintage clothes, a newfound appreciation for the most basic necessities and the comforts of home, an epiphany of the complex feelings I had towards certain people........and a great three weeks in general.

August is going to be spent quietly. My latest project is to achieve Purification, of both the body and mind. I will control my exercise routine, sleep pattern, my diet, the stimuli I receive, the academic contents, so that I can be "re-set" of all outside influence.

It shall be an interesting experiment.

• Dentist Appointment
• Get Hair Done
• Process Photos 
• Watch Inception with someone who actually hasn't watched it yet
• Meet people who are long overdue 
• Do the prelim work for Amherst
• Family Trip 
• Finish all the books bought
• Write
• Find place to work out

I am so frustrated for no reason, I know it's so childish but I was never a mature person. 

I need a drink right now.